Self Portrait 1

So, after much anxiety and not following through with an idea, I finally shot a self-portrait. I like it, but I know that it is only the first one. I thought hard about why I had so much trouble shooting this. And I really only shot around 10 frames when I should have shot a lot more. I wrote an entry about it into my idea book this weekend while I was on break at work:

"I've let myself down on a goal that I need to make happen because I seriously want to succeed in this. I need to shoot my weekly self-portraits. I hadn't realized my anxiety with this until recently. I really have no idea what causes such a rediculous fear, perhaps it is general low-self esteem, but then again a lot of people who have low self-esteem are able to shoot their self-portraits. Perhaps I am too concerned about interfering with the environment I choose occasionally when I do use myself as a model. Perhaps I'm avoiding using my bedroom as an environment. I don't think I'm afraid of possibly letting the viewers of my art into my world and into my mind. Not everything that is of myself can be depicted in a single photo...or can it be? Either way I need to stop putting this off and just shoot it because I believe I could shoot a decent self-portrait. I need to give my photos more credit, put more of a mark down for myself, and wear the wearables I created in some of these."

Today has been rather unproductive. I hadn't got much sleep all weekend so I slept in and have been watching the goonies aside from shooting that photo. I have to catch up on my brochure project big time and plan on venturing to Studio Arts later to do so. Another challenge I am facing is the pouch project in textiles. We must sew together a pouch with a zipper...my challenge is making a boring project into something creative. But how do I do this? What is my bright yellow pouch to me?

Last night I hung my photos in the photo classroom for critique on Monday. I wonder how they will be recieved.